loose lips

HELP ME FIND A CAMERA!!!!!!!

2010-06-07T20:46:00.006-04:00

ok so I know I've been ranting and raving about how much fun I'm having on tumblr on blog spot nonetheless. I been so inspired by this blog called fuckyeahcitylights and the photos on that blog that I finally decided to get a camera!! My first digi-cam that I had SINCE 2003 BROKE!! Which is ok bc I definitely got my moneys worth. But, man did I have a whole lot of memories on that thing even though it was only 3.2 MP which at that time digi cams were just starting out and that was a big deal for me at that time. And just like your first car despite how shitty it might be dents and all, it will always be your baby because of all the memories you shared with it.Same goes for my Kodak Easyshare 3.2 MP digital camera. I'm going to miss that bad boy...

As some of you may now I always wanted to dabble in photography and more than ever I think I need it as an outlet thanks to a major somewhat traumatic experience that has happened to me a few weeks after school has ended. I want to just take pics to know that there is STILL some beauty left in this world. Now I'm not going to go out and buy some $4000 DSLR, because I don't want something too professional ,nor something too amature. SO these are my runners up I guess or ones I'm thinking of I'm going to be ordering from either walmart,kmart or best buy.com nothing too fancy, i just want a camera to follow me like a sketchbook and to be my therapist bc I need it now.

OPTION#1

OPTION#2

OPTION#3

OPTION#4!
I heard some bad things about Figi Film is it true?

OPTION#5
i LOVE the price on this one lol!!^^

OPTION#6

What option should I chose??

FUCK YEAH STREET LIGHTS

2010-06-05T20:08:00.008-04:00

SO OVER BLOG SPOT SO OVER IT!!!
TUMBLR IS WHERE ITS ACT way more fun and the blogs and bloggers on the site as whole Is just better plus the layouts are dopesickk

my fav tumblr blog so far I ve been re blogging them o.d
check then out here::fuckyeakstreetlights

CLICK BELOW ON THEIR BLOG PAGE AND CLICK ARCHIVE TO VIEW MORE. I know tumblr has a million diff layouts and its all orchestrated differently.

another tumblr blog im following love the owl kissing picture there too btw!!
TUMBLR FTW!!fuckyeahhappy

and ofcourse check me out::
heyhellcatlovesYOU

COME WITH ME!!

2010-06-02T17:10:00.005-04:00

HEY CATNAPPERS!!

Ok so I'm doing this 30 day challenge on tumblr and on my youtube channel, therefore this blog won't be updated as mUch for The next 30 days because I'm investing ALOT OF TIME writng and filming my entries for the challenge, but its a whole lot of fun.

For me informnation on the challenge check it out here :: TUMBLR

If you guys don't have a tumblr feel free to leave the comments here on this blog if you wanted to cmmt my tumblr, but you don't have a tumblr account and you wanted to leave me some feedback or sugest me more movies.music or whatever the challenge of the day maybe.....SOO GO CHECK IT OUT!!
XOXO

A BIRD IS JUST A BURDEN

2010-05-29T18:25:00.008-04:00

Ok so school is finally donezo so therefore I can resume back my blogger duties:) and what a better way to start of my first blog post in a while then to post music since this blog is kind of my YouTube channel/music/random writing blog.

ALSO I MADE A TUMBER CHECK ME OUT HERE!

OK so we all know Pete Doherty from the photographs with him and my idol, Kate Moss doing what appeared to be a cocaine like substance and we also know him from dating that train wreck Amy Winehouse!! Unfortunately, he is known for what he does outside of work then his actual musical talents which kinda sucks. We shouldn't judge entertainers by what they do in their personal lives. Their jobs are to give us quality acting,singing dancing etc. I don't know why people change their opinions on them once they find out about their personal lives.YES Amy Winehouse is a talented women I'm not going to remove her songs from my ipod because of whatever she does at home. Its none of my business as an "enertainment consumer" to judge what people do outside of entertainment.

With that being said I give you the poetic Pete Doherty. You can feel the "sad" in his songs and guitar playing. There is something very Paul McCartney (make because he is English also hahah)/Dylan about him.I don't mean that they sound alike just something about him reminds me of those too I don't know why. If you like that you hear check out Pete's old band the Libetines, his new band the Babyshambles or his solo stuff my just searching his name.
BOK CHOY AND ENJOY

ooh and this song really isnt about his ex fiance, Kate Moss, can you guess the real meaning??

2010-05-20T21:57:00.001-04:00

I'm still alive once finals are donezo I will be back blogging missed u all
xoxo

WORDS OF TRUTH

2010-05-06T21:40:00.001-04:00

It doesnt get any better then Motorhead

"I tell you we are doomed my friends
Our time is come, our time is come
We live within a charnel house
Rotten to the core
We glorify lust, greed & pain
We drown our hope in poison rain
We point the finger, shift the blame
Ambition makes us whores"

----From the Song "March or Die"

"GUYS ARENT SUPPOSE TO POUT"

2010-04-28T17:59:00.004-04:00

I'm not the biggest Ke$ha fan, I do enjoy some of her songs to dance too and I have about 5 of her songs on my ipod but, I only listen to about 2 1/2 of them (I listen to one of songs but notfrequently as I do the others). I have to say she has the FUNNIEST interviews I ever saw. If you want to see good,funny interviews youtube her or Gaga because they say/do the funniest things I ever saw on a television interview that most famous ppl dont do. I randomly came upon this video and I just found it funny for some reason lmao. I also love her reaction towards HORSE the band lmao it was my EXACT reaction when I heard them too. And would've knew she liked Steel Panther and Slayer well from her "appearance" you prob would've guessed that or whatever.

PARK AVENUE PRINCESS OR EAST VILLAGE ANIMAL

2010-04-26T14:39:00.004-04:00

Uptown girl trapped in a downtown girl's body?
or is it vice versa?
Sometime's I think I'm a downtown girl trapped in a uptown girl's body due to my standards of living, but I can only blame that on the neighborhood I live in, where money,nice homes and BMW's are frequent.

this is a complete pointless blog, but I felt like dissecting myself a little but today.

UNTITLED

2010-04-14T16:29:00.001-04:00

cigarettes, tattoos and leather is what bought us together

INSPIRATION

2010-04-03T21:59:00.003-04:00

My style icon as of right now. If only I knew where to find pieces like this...

Spring Fashion

2010-03-25T19:54:00.006-04:00

My style is changing. Me and my friend Justine talked about how we evolved throughout the year. At first I was a very calm and "artsy" type and though she is still there Im becoming more "bolder" and Ive been digging things with this ol school NY/L.A. "rock and roll" edge. type vibe.(I'm putting these labels in ""because I dont like to use labels:] but, how else am I going to describe what I'm talking about haha)

So today I thought I will show you some outfit ideas I've been into lately.Since I been doing the youtube beauty vids I think I should also make my blog about beauty as well.But, dont worry there will still be music and my random thoughts in my blog too:)

Ok so I know this shoe isnt conventional and I know most ppl will find a fashion faux pas but Im a SUCKER for floral prints.And I think I will be able to pull it off also I think once you wear a pair of dark skinnies it will bemore toned down and it will look more "vintage-ey"

Retails at topshop for a hefty $70

This is another floral print I adore! I wouldnt wear it with the floralboots but I wanna show you guys anywayu because its soo cute to me!!Another topshop item Retails at $70. Its a very sweeet dress curl your hair up and wear a cardigan you will look like a cute romantic French girl :)

So I wanted to keep this one short because its my first fashion blogger post.So I Hope this gave you guys some ideas for the spring.
Bok Choy and Enjoy
xoxo
Hellcat

JEWEL

2010-03-22T17:46:00.003-04:00

Read this article. This must be the answer to why Jewel's songs are soo close to home for me. I really do feel like she is in my head we have way too much in common. We need more Jewel's and Fiona's and less Gaga's and Ke$ha's.

http://www.theboot.com/2010/03/15/jewel-blog-5/?icid=mainaimdl2link3http%3A%2F%2Fwww.theboot.com%2F2010%2F03%2F15%2Fjewel-blog-5%2F

PERCEPTIONS OF REALITY

2010-03-15T12:17:00.004-04:00

Ok so I'm going to try to blog at least 3x a week minimum maybe more. I think it will be a good thing. So lets get started.....

According to http://www.merriam-webster.com

imag·i·na·tion
Pronunciation: \i-ˌma-jə-ˈnā-shən\
1 : the act or power of forming a mental image of something not present to the senses or never before wholly perceived in reality

re·al
Pronunciation: \ˈrē(-ə)l\
1 : of or relating to fixed, permanent, or immovable things (as lands or tenements)
2 a : not artificial, fraudulent, or illusory

para·noia
Pronunciation: \ˌper-ə-ˈnȯi-ə
1 : a psychosis characterized by systematized delusions of persecution or grandeur usually without hallucinations
2 : a tendency on the part of an individual or group toward excessive or irrational supiciousness and distrustfulness of others

il·lu·sion
Pronunciation: \i-ˈlü-zhən\
1 a obsolete : the action of deceiving b (1) : the state or fact of being intellectually deceived or misled 2) : an instance of such deception
2 a (1) : a misleading image presented to the vision

Ok so we have imagination, real,paranoia and illusion.It doesn't take a rocket scientist to see where I might be going with this and the correlation the words have with one another.

I've been called several of time by family and friends that im "weird" and I agree with this we are all weird and those who call me weird are just hiding themselves which to me is the weirdest thing of all.
Now look at the definitions there really isn't that much of a difference between paranoia and imagination. Except if you're paranoid you're certifiable an outcast and if you have an imagination you're creative and you think outside the box.

But who is to say what other ppl see isn't real? We are all one may say "blessed" with different gifts AND curses. You KNOW what you see and I Know what I see. Just because you don't posses the gift or curse that one may say God gave me doesn't mean I'm crazy nor does is make you normal because you don't see it.

For me REALITY IS PERCEPTION. .You perceive your reality there isn't a textbook or psychiatrist that can tell you otherwise to try to make you perceive THEIR reality

Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that those serial killers that go on rampages because they "felt they were being told to by an alien" or some shit like that is right. Because that is wrong I don't condone that at all.I believe that they just say shit so they wont get a harsher sentence and they can plea insanity.

I'm just talking about how you perceive the world in your eyes and how some people may see things that others don't see but they aren't necessarily evil things though and because some people may see images or things you don't see doesn't mean they are certifiable even though the ones that do harm to others might be lmao.

Basically I'm just getting tired of people calling me weird and doubting my thoughts and perspective. I don't doubt your perspective because I don't have your eyes and I can't judge nor do I have any intentions on judging anyone.

Just to reiterate....
Disclaimer:::: I'm not condoning anyone who harms others because they "see" things.

Lily Cole

2010-03-13T21:03:00.010-05:00

I always loved pics like this a white background and just a plain face she has hardly any makeup on (so jealous btw) and I know that models actually get jobs when they go to the "go-see's" with little to no makeup on because they like to look at models as a blank canvas so with that being said makes me so jealous bc they are gorgeous without the fkn makeup lmao. I will love to take an empty pic like this one day lol The other Playboy pics are posted above^^^

You hardly see any girl on the cover of Playboy who doesn't have a curvy body well here is the first lol

She is absolutely stunning and she looks like a porcelain doll she inspires me maybe she can inspire you?

In 2 months...

2010-02-28T19:24:00.004-05:00

In two months I:::

lost a best friend(by lost I mean we arent bff's no more)
lost a scholarship due to not having enough credits
rekindle past memories that werent pleasant
had to deal with a boy who I really dont know and he gives me bad vibes
got told to lose weight by someone I work with
moderate anxiety due to all of the above
slight mild depression due to all of the above but nothing to serious:)
slight relapase (read the relpase post again Im not on drugs nor did I ever use them)

Seriously Its not even MARCH yet oy veyyyyyyyyy

this is WAYY tooo much for a 2 month time period ALOT to handle.

signals

2010-02-26T19:47:00.001-05:00

Its only 2 months in the New Year and it went from bad to worse in a blink of an eye.
oy vey

R E L A P S E

2010-02-22T14:21:00.005-05:00

To kinda reiterate what I said in my previous entry below which was more about a guy. I wanna say again that people simply cannot say certain things.You don't know how its going to affect them. You don't know what sort of things the person went through and you simply cant say certain things.

I'm in a very dark place right now and I wanna get out of it.But I know myself. The venom is trying to find its way and slowly its getting there. I think it might be too late, hopefully not.I NEVER been in a dark place before. I know most people been in a dark places before perhaps after a breakup or not gettin accepted in a college or a death of a loved one etc.

www.merriam-webster.com defines the term relapse as:

1 : the act or an instance of backsliding, worsening, or subsiding
2 : a recurrence of symptoms of a disease after a period of improvement

Now I'm not saying I'm on drugs. I never touched a drug in my life and have no plans what so ever to do so.But a relapse to me can be anything it can be going back to your old habits of not studying, going back to an ex who didn't treat you well, spending too much money after you promised to yourself you are goingto start budgeting etc.
It doesn't always mean drugs and/or alcohol abuse well to me it doesn't.

BEING PICKY

2010-02-13T23:24:00.007-05:00

Ok OK I know I'm pretty picky. when it comes to a lot of things. Yes I want a cup of coffee but there is now way I'm have a sip of your decaf. Yes I need new jeans but if they aren't super skinny jeans from urban outfitters umm yea I'm not wearing them.

I need to switch up my mentality and mind set. Its quite unhealthy. Because at the end of the day there is always something that we can "pick"at to make us unhappy. Like for me and the whole boyfriend sitch for instance. At first I thought the reason to why I'm always single is that perhaps I'm not very attractive. And I still do believe that and NO this isn't a call for pity and for me to indulge is some harmless self loathing but its what I firmly believe still to do this. I mean srsly. Anywhoozer if I keep being picky I'm never going to meet/do anything and once when I started to let my guard down and make progress on my cynicism an asshole finds away to fuck with my mental state of mind which is too personal to write about here only one person knows what I'm talking about and I'm sure she is reading it:) thx btw :)

This year my new years resolution is clarity and funny thing is two months in the new year and guess what my life is far from clear right now.

BTW
this post I have been writing and editing for abt 1-2 weeks so I can't write on this topic anymore because my head was in a diff place.Asyou can see in the first pargraph or so I was more potimistic but towards the end it went back to being cynical.And to think I was actually feeling that yes, I should give ppl a chance and be less picky until yesterday which basically confirmed that I was making the right choice by sending ppl away ,not giving them the chance and staying away from people.

If ppl only knew how much their actions affect people. I'm sure ppl wouldn't hit on ppl as much, maybe they would and just not care despite the emotional baggage the person they are hitting on may have. And also despite how their actions can cause them to relapse and remember all they wanted to forget.

For some reason Im real anxious over the silliest thing and Im sure Im making a bigger deal out of it then what it really is.I feel like I'm the overdramtic princess right now and I'm normally the ice queen. I like being the ice queen too. She keeps me safe.
I thought I woulkd get over this but its been haunting me in school and I been shaking in class for no reason and I'm out of harms way there.

Im sorry for anymone reading this bc no lie I feel like I'm being soo dramatic and I hate dramatic ppl. Im the fkn ice princess what happened?

xoxoxo
hellcat

ORGASMATRON

2010-02-10T16:26:00.004-05:00

Motorhead listen and look

I MADE A.....

2010-02-08T14:13:00.005-05:00

YOUTUBE CHANNEL
go subscribe and tell your friends lol so far I have 13 subbies:) I didnt even think I would get 1 subbie lol
My channel is basically universal:
-vlogging
-hair
-makeup
-singing
-dancing
-maybe art? if I can find a way to put that up lmao
BUT GO AND CHECK IT OUT
xoxo
hellcat
http://www.youtube.com/user/angieterror

P.S
Im still working on bucket list of 100 things so far I have 54 when I get to 100 I will finally publish the post ooh and SPOILER making a youtube channel is one the things on my bucket list:)))

Expiration dates

2010-01-31T19:42:00.002-05:00

everthing has to expire.
but if you keep it pass its expiration date
it can hurt you
because expired items are toxic
and if you keep expired milk past its expiration date it will become
sour.

Franny and Zooey

2010-01-28T19:07:00.001-05:00

"It's everybody, I mean. Everything everybody does is so--I don't know--not wrong, or even mean, or even stupid, necessarily. But just so tiny and meaningless--and sad-making. And the worst part is, if you go bohemian or something crazy like that, you're conforming just as much as everybody else, only in a different way."

--Franny and Zooey, J.D. Salinger

R.I.P J.D. Salinger

Feelings?I bury them.

2010-01-21T03:38:00.004-05:00

Lately I've been feeling like a need to change.I dont know what exactly I wanna change, but I know something needs to change. I feel this urgent need to move to Cali, L.A as a matter of fact. Yes I know the born and raised New York girl movin to the west coast which is basically considered a sin here in NYC, but I feel there is something out there for me. I told my mom that Im thinking about dedicating my life to music on the car ride home from bestbuy and her response wasnt exactly what I've been hoping for. Because there wasnt a response at all. She just said my vocal voice is getting better.So I guess I have her blessing...

ALSO

Apart of this change is my apperance. I wanna be pretty. And please dont leave me one of those"But Angie you are soo pretty" comments because I wont believe you for

1.) You're my friend and you are being nice

2.)For pity

and I want NEITHER!!!

I've been getting into makeup alot lately to well make up for what Im lacking. Dont you believe the word"make up" is a dis in itself? Beacause you are making up for the beauty you dont have.

I was once one of those gals who wouldnt care abt makeup and I thought I was better off without it,but now my self esteem is going back to that dark place it was in high school.AND I CANT GO BACK THERE AGAIN!

But how else can I fix these feeling unless I work towards a prettier me which means being less low maitainence and bobby pinning my hair back as my go to look for school and actually style it. And perhaps to wear more makeup besides mascara,lipgloss and liquid eyeliner.

soundtrack to my life right now:::
ofcourse it is....
I have the lyrics posted below beceause Jewel is more then a singer she's a poet and she herself even said its important for the listener to pay attn to her lyrics (or she said something like that dont quote me!!)and to unbderstand her art you really have to read the lyrics

Lyrics :
a man stands in the doorway like a small child
angry fists
she lies in her bed her head buried in her pillow
she stares at the moon
he speaks to her all the words she's heard too many times before
and pretty soon she just lets his voice fade away
she thinks
this was a gradual steel frost that started with cold feet
but ended with numb hearts
it was once satisfying sex, but now no longer is
it was once filled with all the possibilities of new china or old stone
but now it's exaggerated and water-logged
no longer what these hands had intended and still I cry in my sleep

he always said I was too sensitive
but I say, at least I never meant to make him cry
at least I never meant to make him hurt that way
no, I never meant to make him cry
I never meant to make you hurt that way

yes it's true, I'm too sensitive but
he takes pleasure in my pain
yes it's true, I'm too sensitive but
he takes pleasure in my pain

and the unheard hours they fly by, she goes to the window
puts on a nightgown and brushes her hair
he's already asleep by the time she goes to lay back down
she thinks, my god, what I am doing here

her bones have grown tired of his hunger, of his grey eyes
and I feel that if I were to stay one more night here I'd die, or explode, or worse yet, just fade away
he always said I was too sensitive
if I dared to care so much, the world could kill me that way
I wonder if he's only half alive or if he simply has always been this inarticulate

but I say, at least I never meant to make him cry
at least I never meant to make him hurt that way
no, I never meant to make him cry
I never meant to make him hurt that way

yes it's true, I'm too sensitive but
he takes pleasure in my pain
yes it's true, I'm too sensitive but
he takes pleasure in my pain

she gets out of bed and looks at her feet as though they were the wings for her freedom
she gets up and goes to the drawer
it's a moment in which anything can happen
instead she gets out some clothing, puts them in a bag
and leaves him sleeping while she heads for the door

In the meanwhile

2010-01-13T18:13:00.005-05:00

Ok so right now Im working on my"bucket list" so far i have about 25 things written but I want to get atleast 50 or 100 so I just saved the post but it is yet to be published so in the meanwhile Ima just blog about music.
I been listening to CocoRosie for about 2 years now.Their voice and style is really orginal and this one song "Terrible Angels" stuck with me so go and listen....

Pick and you shall recieve

2009-12-29T00:00:00.003-05:00

Ok so I have alot of motley vids I wanna show you guys but, I dont wanna drown you guys in it (I will later though haha) but I do feel the need to write so Ima give you all a chance to pick a line from the following and from there I will write an elaborate short story on it ok? So these sentences are gonna be random not thought out at all so here we go.....

"Dude be quiet we cant let them hear us,because if they do its going to be over."
She sat there in the spotlight, her makeup smudged and blood oozing down her face."This is what they call life" she said.
He never believed in stuff like that.For Paul religion was just a masquerade for the weak. Those who needed something to believe in for why their lives are so shitty, so they just say "It's in Gods hands."
I imagine this is what falling in love would sound like.
"Those are some lovely lines I wouldnt mind if I take somemyself" Lena said.

pick one of the above and I will write a mini story on it. Hopefully you wil enjoy it. Im no Plath or Woolfe nor will I ever try to be or do I wanna be anyway, but I thought this would be fun and something new to add to my bloggity blog.

xoxo

-Hellcat

whats really good?!?!?!

2009-12-21T14:40:00.004-05:00

HOLY SHIZ

its been forevr since I been on this bitch, I've been hella busy with school and shiz but now im on winter vacation I can resume to blog :) Ive been getting alot of ppl telling me to blog again and I dont want an angry audience,no buena.
OK
so my inner Cruehead has been growing alot lately, been jamming to them like everyday. Mick Mars in particular caught my cat eye. He is the quiet and weird guitar player(who is very underatted btw he should be up there with slash and hendrix no lie & I'm not the only Cruehead to say this) so to prove my point Ima show you how good my boy is :) This is his solo from Merry Go Round one of My fav Motley Crue songs :)))

ohh and he is also the hottest guy ever he is the 3rd one with the long hair and beer can my kinda guy :)) Unfortunatly he suffers from A.S. a degenerative bone disease the pic below is when he was younger .He can no longer move his neck from left to right ,it has left him stiff. But, he is still playing music and has been touring with Motley for Cruefest which I will save money and go to one of these fkn days.

ohh and watch this video fast foward to 2:00 u get to hear more guitar playing hear his voice which I find soothing for some reason and at the end he makes a wierd joke and has the most cutest laugh lol

damn I sound like a groupie

thank god I wasnt around it the 80's....

L O S T

2009-11-04T10:19:00.002-05:00

It's been awhile and if you're anything like me you are extremly busy with school,I mean how can you not be?
But before I emerse myself in Glycolysis and the Citric Acid Cycle I decided to come back to the bloggity world entertain you all.
So someone told me that they want me to do followup on my previous eentry "No Singles Allowed" which made me happy that someone is actually reading thisblog for one and second that someone foiunbd it captivating enough to want me to write more on that issus.Make it seem worthwhile that someone is connected to my words and understand what Im writing about.
Therefore I WILL be writting a followup on the "No Singles Allowed" post shortly. But, I have a major exam Tuesday a.ka. "Judgement Day".
Wish Me Luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxo

NO SINGLES ALLOWED

2009-10-17T14:42:00.005-04:00

In New York I feel that if you are single you are no longer valuable. I now know what Carrie Bradshaw felt like. Being in NYC I feel that if you are a single gal you are looked upon as if you just robbed a bank! But, I f you are premed, you dont havet time for dating.One of my best friends,Louisa told me that "If you are premed, yor never going to date and your gonna be a virgin forever,but its gonna be worth it when you make more money then your friends who were dating and hooking up with pppl will ever have,we put in the effort." While I find this to be very funny, it is also true.Unless you are premed you will never know the sacrifices we have to do, you will NEVER know unless you lived it,I can tell you but, unless you lived it you don't and will never know.

With that said I don't even know if I'm the dating type. I can't picture myself calling someone everyday or holding hands and being all affectionate.I cant really picture myself seriously caring for someone besides myself.Like what is the point of having a boyfriend?Sex?Friendship?Companion? You don't need a bf to have sex, there is always the random hookup or evn toys lmao ;) I don't need a bf be my friend because I have my girls and my gays as friends and for companionship there is always cats:) I HATE when people ask "So where's the boyriend?" "Hows the love life?" Is it REQUIRED to have a boyfriend past a certain age? Did I miss that memo?

Or perhaps my standards are too HIGH, but shouldn't yours too? I don't know why we settle.Because I never settle. its either what I want or its nothing, I'm not gonna settle for anything less. I don't know why we must sell ourselves short.

But, with this being said I still become jealous when I hear about my friends and their social lives and dating lives. But, as my dear friend Lolo once told me"If one of my friends were to get pregnant, I'm not so sure If I would still be jealous of them?"

Next post, Perhaps I will show you guys my list of standards,be ready to read for hours HAHA!

I found a Jewel

2009-10-10T22:44:00.008-04:00

So LOVE LOVE Jewel, Her music is so powerful I mean you have to listen to the lyrics and the meaning behind her songs.All of her songs I believe are actual life experiences. I highly recommend you all to listen to her first album 'Pieces of You'

If I can write songs and/or play guitar like she does I can say I accomplished a major goal in my life.

Anywho Ima post these two videos from her 'Pieces of You' album.Lets play a little game: Tell me what you think these songs are about otherwise their meanings and since Im a major Jewel fan I might know the meaning if not then go to google, but dont go to google until you make a guess on your own :) But living in a world Of Lady Gaga's we sometimes forget real song writing, thank God atleast we have Adele
This song is very powerful prepare to get some tissue because It might make you cry once you know what it is about:( TITLE:EMILY

listen to the lyrics again ppl!!!! TITLE:MEMOIRS OF A HOUSEWIFE

ALL WE ASK

2009-09-29T11:37:00.004-04:00

So Im in love with this band slowly slipping their way up to my top 5!!(Another brooklyn based band I like whats up with that??) Anywho this song is from their news album Vecktamist which came out this summer and I devoured it as soon as it came out, but for all of you who are still listening to old g.bear you guys gotta deff check out the new albummm AMMMAAAAZINNGGGG!!!

old soul

2009-09-18T16:50:00.008-04:00

Ok so I have came to the conclusion that besides the fact that there might actually be a gay boy inside of my straight girl body, there also might be an 50 year old in there too. I can remember back in middle school for my obsession with all things "ancient" or as the kids these days are calling it, vintage. In junior high I would wear my hair in this "monroe" inspired curly do and yes I worn red cherry lipstick. That made me look beyond my years. I would walk around the halls and say "How do yo do?" to my teachers in a low whisper just like the girls back then use to say it. As the years progressed I became a HUGE fan of Audrey Hepburn. It was a rainy day and I sat down on the couch and watched 'Roman Holiday' on AMC, which I believe is one of her first movies and she won an Academy Award as well if I'm not mistaken. I wanted to BE her.100% Audrey. Unlike the actresses I grew up seeing these girls had class, they worn heels and lipstick to throw out the trash.(HAHA that rhymes!!) And instead of tack tongue rings , they wouldnt be caught without their diamonds.

And this goes for music too. I grew up listening to the oldies:Marvin Gaye, Al Green, The Temptations,Aretha Franklin and the list goes on. My brother always blasted underground rap too, my family always liked the underground which influenced the person I am today in fashion,music my life style etc. I love all things old, things that can tell a story. In high school the 60's wave hit me harder then an Hippies acid trip. I feel in love with Edie Segwick, Any Warhol and the factory,Twiggy, Brigitte Bardot and all things MOD. During this time I would wear these short babydoll dresses to school with my black leggings, what a weird one I was...

Even today Im still an old soul my music tatse goes from the The Andrew Sisters to the Beatles and Neil Young to Motley Crue and Journey. Its all over. Even for rap I like old school rap from the 90's. Maybe my old soul is why Im despreate to find another cherry red lipstick. I guess somethings you can never get over...

This song,this band the lyrics it means alot to me, I feel the words

And this is for the lovely Audrey Hepburn...
(I encourage you all to watch the whole Audrey Video, they show some of her quotes that will make you adore her even more <3)

to look at life microscopically

2009-09-13T11:31:00.009-04:00

We only can see whats in front of us, but the real joy of the gift of sight is to see the little things. Because without the little things the "bigger" things in life lose their significance. I get to see the little things in life on a regular basis. Me, the microscope and the cells. The pictures above I took from a very difficult angle. I put my camera to the eye piece of my microscope and I tried to get the best shot I could. So YES these pics are straight from the scope. These are plant cells (I should've taken pics from the animal blood cells as well )

I won't be blogging as much as I use to, because those Harvard Med grades arent going to make themselves pop up on my transcript, but I will post any new pics/videos/thoughts/ideas/art or whatever pops into mind that I feel is significant enought to blog about.

So until then then...

Veritas,

Angie

*** THESE ARE ALL PICTURES THAT I HAVE TAKEN, I CHANGED MY BLOG TITLE SO EXCUSE THE 'Painthecolor'ON MY PICS THAT WAS MY OLD BLOG URL, THESE PICS BELONG TO ME BECAUSE I TAKEN THEM ALL!!

realization

2009-09-07T13:32:00.000-04:00

its kinda like eating an Oreo cookie and finding out there isn't any creme...

blog commitment?

2009-08-25T00:31:00.001-04:00

I feel like I havent been a "steady" blogger or as someone likes to state "what happened to my blogger commitment?

A few months ago around the start of my summer vacation me and my bestie went back to the good ol high school for this art alumni show. All the AP Art kids came back to show their art and what they are doing in their career art wise. And let me tell you they all look the same I really hoped someone showed up with a really bad nose job, ya know to keep the conversation flowing. As the night got older I realized how much I miss high school, but as soon as I felt that nostalgic feeling some annoyin 15 year old made me glad I did'nt have to deal with their squeaky prepubscent voices any more.

Me and Stephanie and some other high school friends sneaked into one of the old art rooms. We went to the 'loft' upstairs in the room which was a studio where all the AP kids kept their art and chilled.I had my camera and I captured. My hands desired to be dusty by charcoal again.

where was I??

2009-08-20T02:48:00.000-04:00

Bonjour! I been listening to wayy too much Beyonce lately besides that

I have no thoughts.

No more 'Prep'

2009-08-12T13:36:00.000-04:00

Sassy ladies from the left (Taylor aka "the public school one", Kelli! and Camille)

So NYC Prep ended last night. The season finale was everything I wanted and more. Jessie's Operation Smile event was a major success. Camille meet up with Jessie to discuss her future with Operation Smile. Jessie wasnt having it she totally dissed Camille telling her that "there is the Facebook group she should joined" umm HELLO DUH!! PC got his acceptance letter for Occidental College in LA. and what is even more shocking is that PC actually showed an ounce of humility when he apologized to fashion designer Carmen Marc Volvo, about bringing his "downtown vampire" entourage to his show, which could've put Jessie's internship with the designer in jeopardy. Even the pseudo player Sebastian decided to have his own charity event. It was about giving portable and clean drinking water to people in Africa, kudos Sebastian Kudos.However he went back to his wannabe player ways b y stating "its also good because girls like that kinda stuff" or somethinbg along those lines like that.At Sebastian's event he offered Kelli (oops i forgot its Kelli!) a chance to sing at the event since she is an aspiring singer, and surprisingly she does have a good voice, a little nasally at time , but hey she's only 17.
For what it wads NYC Prep will never be forgotten, Atleast for me anyway. It took the viewers to a place where you have to trade your eyeballs for diamonds to really see.

picture perfect

2009-08-06T23:23:00.000-04:00

All I ever wanted was a happy family.

For all of you who have that please cherish it. I get soo jealous when I see people and their relationships with their moms/dads. I just wonder "why me?" its cliche I know, but why I don't I have a relationship like most of my friends with their rents. It sucks not having any real family relationships besides my older brother. Nor is it fun to fill my life with material things to comfort me. Material objects is like a mother to me. So when I see shows like NYC Prep and these kids are not only beyond wealthy, but have parents who care for them, its just everything I dont have, so the show fills a void. They say money doesnt buy happiness, but if you dont have happiness you have money so thats not so bad. But if you dont have money and you dont have happiness, it leaves you with nothing.

It just sucks growing up and not having anyone or a logic thinking adult. So when I grew up i thought perhaps my mom will stop being selfish and do things for me instead for her benefit.Bc as a child me and my bro always was there for her so maybe she will do her parenting later on NO she didnt. Now at 20 years old she is still all for self.

This basically sums it all up::::

Fall 2008 I was having a hard time with my sciences classes and being the perfect premed student. So I told my mom " I dont know if I can do this anymore, its too hard, I dont know if I have what it takes to become a doctor." I looked at my mom waitng for the typical supportive pep talk of " dont worry just keep trying hard." Instead she replied by saying " Well I never reallly saw you becoming a doctor anyway, I dont think it meant for you, try something else."

I love her motivating motherly words of wisdom...

just call me grannie panties, Hello,Roaring 20's

2009-08-02T18:53:00.001-04:00

I'm 20 today!!

I should be estastic right?But, Im not.

Not being a teen anymore isn't something I'm happy about. My first actual adult year and I'm not exactly sure how to handle it or what to think of it. I was a teen for 6 years 13-19 and it was the best years of my life, new experiences and first year of high school first day of college ,senior year, hanging out with your crew after school, senior prom, first crushes and everything all teen years. Twenties is all about getting the career, the internship and getting your shit together. Finding the major thats going to lead you to the 7 figure career.(Im not settling for 6 figures sorry). Finding a bf, who can be a fiance (more mid-late 20's) , but still all of the pressure of the Roaring 20's. And Im feeling really old. I know soo many teens and the fact that I'm not one anymore makes me feel matronly.

I am however very glad and fortunate that I was able to live for 20 years, two whole decades, well here is for another 20 more and 20 more and 20 more and 20 more after that!!!

R.I.P

2009-07-29T21:37:00.000-04:00

R.I.P. Hope Antz

Even though I haven't seen you in sometime now and even though I didn't know you real well, But I knew you enough.You were always happy with a smile on your face. You will be missed.

R.I.P Hope.

Simple, sweet and hushed

2009-07-26T11:28:00.001-04:00

Its been a while since I heard good music and I'm totally obsessed right n ow with this new band callled First Aid Kit . Two twin sister I believe from Sweden, both at the very humble age of 18 and 15 I believe dont quote me :) Btw, the guitar skills are quite amazing, maybe if I practce more I can hope to be this good and the vocals are melodic and simple. Tegan and Sara eat you heart out.

This is a cover from Indie-Folk band Fleet Foxes which was my first time hearing them, as I was Youtube searching some Fleet Foxes music and I came across them.Breathtaking.

This is their original song "Our Own Pretty Ways" which is pretty amazing as well. Bok Choy and Enjoy.

look at me

2009-07-25T21:39:00.001-04:00

bok choy and enjoy

not much chance for survival

2009-07-24T13:47:00.001-04:00

La Blogotheque allows musicians to perform in the most pure and raw form. From confined spaces to the streets of Paris to elevators to bathrooms

my conversation with city lights

2009-07-21T19:08:00.001-04:00

I took this a couple of months ago, I posted another pic similar like this one it was taken on the same day. The sky was breathtaking, it begged for my attention. And look closely, you might even be able to see 3 white dots, the city lights that are adored by tourist have now been minimized to 3 white dots meaning absolutely nothing.

*** THESE ARE ALL PICTURES THAT I HAVE TAKEN, I CHANGED MY BLOG TITLE SO EXCUSE THE 'Painthecolor'ON MY PICS THAT WAS MY OLD BLOG URL, THESE PICS BELONG TO ME BECAUSE I TAKEN THEM ALL!!

validation

2009-07-17T15:11:00.000-04:00

its times like this that really validates the future I want in life
money
career
nice home
rich ass hubby
fast cars

i already did the working class life
its time for the rich one

I wanna trade eyes with you, for just one moment...

2009-07-13T00:21:00.001-04:00

So I've been gone for quite some time. I sank deep down into the abyss of the Upper East Side. Well anywhoozer im back!!
My days have been spent either at work or NYC Prep :)
Now to go off track for a bit im in major need of an outter body experience, a fkn sap. I wanna be in on the joke, I wanna see what everyone else is seeing.

NYC Prep

2009-07-03T12:56:00.000-04:00

( From the left: Kelli, Sebastian, Camille,PC,Jessi and Taylor)

ok I am totez in love with NYC Prep on Bravo! It is a new reality show about 5 Upper East Side rich kids who go to the top prep schools in The upper east/west side. My favorite is PC a senior who is never afraid to speak his mind . I also like Kelli,Camille and Taylor. Jessie is ok so is Sebastian. He thinks he is a player and he like to hookup with multiple girls a night( "hooking up" for him is kissing a making out) at the end of the day he still is a kid who really doesnt know what he is talking about. He makes it appear as if he is having sex with 5-6 girls a night ,but I doubt it.Taylor is a sweetie she lives on the Upper West Side but she doesnt go to a prep school. She attends a very competitive publice high school whic is very hard tlo get into. The reason I connect with this show more than Laguna Beach, The Hills or any rich and young show is because NYC Prep is about who live in the same vicinty as my school. I go to school in the Uppeer East Side and I see this life everyday. I go to the Food Emporuium and I see all of these Park Avenue Princess types. Therefore this show is kinda more"real" to me and I can appreciate it more.

Any way I'm abso OBSESSED with this show ,you can say I'm in love. Im so jealous of them, I would LOVE to have this life.Being able to buy your way into and Ivy school, going top exclusive parties dressed in the latest Chanel meeting celebs going to hot clubs no need for i.d. and having a personal driver. FABURIFFIC!!

quick sand

2009-06-29T00:06:00.000-04:00

I'm too tired.
Ever felt like moving and doing something, but your mind isn't letting you. I been through this battle too many times and Im simply tired of it all.
I know we all been there. I just gotta remember this is natural,this is natural,this is natural, this is...

change of plans

2009-06-23T19:05:00.000-04:00

Ima marry rich. One day as i stroll along the Upper East Side on my way to class, I'ma run into one of the cast members from NYC Prep and its gonna be all set from there. I will drop outta college and instead of going to class, I'll go to Bergdorf's. Instead of shitty vendor food or caferteria shit, I wil be devouring the best foods of 4 star restaurants. Drive?Suway?Bus/ NAHH! I will have a personal driver to push the whip for me. Life would be grand. I would no longer be in a situation of I wanna be an artist but premed is a secure option. Money would be out the question I would'nt need to major in something to have a secure future, I can do what I want whenever I want.

Grand.

But, the inner feminist in me won't allow myself to act like that. We're from opposite worlds anyway. I want love and drunken eyes. I want to have the balls if you will, to be the one to ask for the prenup NOT the guy. I want to pay for the dates to feel independent and even emasculate him, but that would be unintenional but yea its a perk of it all. And if he ever cheated on me I want to be able to not have to worry abt finances and how Ima survive without him

Grand.

sitting on the stepping stone

2009-06-17T18:51:00.000-04:00

time.is.of.the.essence.

or that is what they say.

But,for me, nah I never listen. If I was to devote myself to this theory completly I would not be where I am today.I would've been happier. For I would've took a plunge into an aqueous solution, one that I was unsure of, but one that I truly did love, or was madly infatuated with.
But.since I didnt follow that, I'm in a mud hole. An intersection. Divided into three paths. There's no good path and bad path,right or wrong,fun or boring. But, there is logic and just plain stipid. First love or my second one. Passion or security. Pleasure or Pain. Lace or Leather.

the scapel,the story, or the paintbrush?

2009-06-10T20:12:00.001-04:00

I need a breather. To figure it out.life goals etc . The scapel,the story or the paintbrush?

*** THESE ARE ALL PICTURES THAT I HAVE TAKEN, I CHANGED MY BLOG TITLE SO EXCUSE THE 'Painthecolor'ON MY PICS THAT WAS MY OLD BLOG URL, THESE PICS BELONG TO ME BECAUSE I TAKEN THEM ALL!!

double post in one day

2009-06-08T20:21:00.000-04:00

There are times when all I want is a white coat then there are times when I wanna splatter it with acrylic and oil paints. What is there to do? I want the easel and the scapel.

moving along

2009-06-08T11:32:00.001-04:00

so far so good.
simple.

La Blogotheque- Grizzly Bear

2009-06-03T17:43:00.000-04:00

This is so beautiful that its hauunting. Cant stop listening to the song on my zune/watching the video on youtube. All of their shows soldout so I missed out on my chance to see them play in Williamsburg last week. :(

epic fail

2009-06-02T19:32:00.000-04:00

All we need as humans I believe is an epic fail. No, failing your road test doesnt count. By this I mean to fail at something that you invested so much time in. Something that you probably wouldve done for the rest of your life or perhaps someone that wouldve been in your life forever, but things didnt work out. The epic fail allows us to move on to become fearless individuals. Besides after losing something/someone that meant so much to you, you later become immune to any form of hurt. You lost what meant the most to you so as so you establish this "Fuck you pay me" attitude towards life. If you pass a class you pass it if you dont you dont. If things dont work out with your new siginifcant other, oh well I felt this before shit happens I can move on, I been through this before, Im still alive still strong. Once you hit "rock bottom" or lost a dream that meant the world to you, sooner or later you will just not care as much,this epic fail which at the time probably felt severe and terminal, can actually be a blessing. I experienced the epic fail. At first I was crushed which is natural and kept my wall up which is still there sad to say. But as time passes I became more relaxed and enjoyed life for what it is no expectations no nothing. And the outcome was fantastic . Everything went according to "plan" because you know why there was no plan,therefore no expections=no lost.
basically once you have reached the epic fail in your life,and you realize that somethings are meant to happen is when you finally get to enjoy things for what they are,which is just wondeful
So epic fail this is to you

Melodies in my head

2009-05-29T23:07:00.001-04:00

Summer Vacation has lead me to take photographs .Im going to try to blog atleast everyday ,which I prob will do because there isnt much going on nowadays anyway, besides listen to Beirut which always leads to me getting mad I missed their show in Williamsburg,Brooklyn :( and my chance to probably meet Zach Condon.*sigh.* I also cant stop listening to "Two Weeks" by Grizzly Bear.So yea the summer so far is the summer of music and photos.

*** THESE ARE ALL PICTURES THAT I HAVE TAKEN, I CHANGED MY BLOG TITLE SO EXCUSE THE 'Painthecolor'ON MY PICS THAT WAS MY OLD BLOG URL, THESE PICS BELONG TO ME BECAUSE I TAKEN THEM ALL!!

overview: place unknown

2009-05-28T12:50:00.001-04:00

im not exactly sure where I took this photograph,but there was just someething about the sky that evening

*** THESE ARE ALL PICTURES THAT I HAVE TAKEN, I CHANGED MY BLOG TITLE SO EXCUSE THE 'Painthecolor'ON MY PICS THAT WAS MY OLD BLOG URL, THESE PICS BELONG TO ME BECAUSE I TAKEN THEM ALL!!

ciao! manhattan

2009-05-27T21:26:00.001-04:00

Daniel Rossen from the band Grizzly Bear's cover of Jojo's "Too Little Too Late"----AMAZING!!

2009-05-27T20:47:00.000-04:00

http://link.brightcove.com/services/player/bcpid1827871374?bctid=14016145001

the fortune you seek

2009-05-24T23:04:00.001-04:00

I'm eating Friendly's watermelon shebert that I bought from my job on sale 2 for 5 ice cream. My body is covered in my old blanket I had for years and my bed is overdosed with teddy:bears,rabbits,monkey,tigers and oh yes Garfield and Ernie from Sesame street. My mom has no problem with all of these men sleeping in my bed. Excuse me the bear is a girl. In my room I hear the roar of the fan making its prescence be known,it is loud but silent. Theres AC everywhere in my house except for my room. I get the decade old fan (exxgeration) I have to study over the summer break. To prepare myself for Fall semester's premed maddness. Sara Bareilles's song Vegas is stuck in my head and the lines "But I'd hate to lose you to the fortune you seek." is on repeat in my mind.

heart left, naive right

2009-05-21T15:27:00.000-04:00

Im pretty sure im done-zo with premed
let me give u the pros and cons:

Pros

I get to take classes like bio and learn about the human body.
A new sense of intelligence, knowing I'm learning concepts, alot of people wont be able to understand.
If I get accepted in medical school I will make my mom very happy.
I get to help others in need.
And after a while I get to make shitload of $$$$$
.........

Cons

Sleep deprivation, nahh this shit kicks in BEFORE med school.
Science is harddd, likee reallly hard, especially at my college , we have a reputation for hard sciences :(
Science is pretty boringggg,not sure if im even good at at.
The people are wayy too comepetive for me, I understand competiton is in every career, but asking ppl for you for your grades before they even say hi, is just douchee.
Too stressful, spent alot on my time crying, simply depressed. Is premed worth my happiness?
I can be doing this shit and not even get in med school. Can be going through this shit JUST to get rejected.
I have soo many passions in my life, art,theatre,photography,media,journalism, writning, fashion. Do I really wannna give that up for good.?
Premed makes me bitter and mean to the people I love. I become a different person I dont like that girl I become when I do premed.
If I get in med schoool , Im sure its gonna be boring besides the clinicals.
Ima be in debt like $200,000 in debt
Sure doctors make moneyyy but I would havee soo many loans I wont even get to enjoy it.
Most of the money I do make is going to go into lawsuits from patients. Doctors get sued o.d.
Ima have to fight for a residency, prob dont even get the one I want or be in the state I wanna be in. I wanna stay in New York.
Sleep deprivation is evn worse but unlike in undergrad where I can sleep whenever I want. If im on call I cant just hit the snooze buttton.
Family life pshh I wont have time for that shit.
Also sometimes I think being a doctor is kinda boring. paperwork blahhh getting bitched by my attending.
To be honest im not sure if I even like it

So as you can see the cons out weigh the pros. However I can't give up this idea of becoming a doctor.

why?

Because I know if I fully pursue any of the other careers my job/future wont be stable or a definite. Pre med Im sure I will have a job and make money to support myself, un like in art, or even journalism where most of the shit is freelanced. Sometimes I hate art because I love something that isnt stable if my passion was science or business everything would be great. I can be a CEO ,scientist ,doctor or whatever and I wouldnt mind doing it and going through the harsh classes because I love it, but I dont. People always say if you can see yourself doing anything else beside being a doctor, then dont be a doctor. Hmmm food for thought.

what I would do for peace of mind...

this is my winter song to you...

2009-05-17T17:33:00.001-04:00

below is the official video link copy n paste it for some reason its not allowed to be embedded the official videoo is amazing so i recommend it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUO0gd7cr9o

2009-05-16T12:41:00.000-04:00

after almost two years in college i just realized i've been doing it wrong it all just wrong...wrong in every way...now it makes since

Hello
realization, how do you do?

2009-05-14T01:43:00.000-04:00

Beyond busy
schoool is a total educational fuck
finalss are approaching
im rethinking my major
not excited for he class i registered for fall 09 semester
&&
my laptop is being a complete electronic fuckk soo ima stop here

CREATE & INNOVATE

2009-05-02T23:50:00.000-04:00

so here is my art. I dont like to use the word art to describe what I do. Im just doing ssomething that I enjoy, an expression.

Im thinking about making an Etsy account to sell some of my work hmmm...

coming attractions

2009-04-27T23:24:00.000-04:00

updates of art work past and present coming soon. naked ppl, a portrait of kurt vonnegut, and more.
pictures of advertisments for my blog, painthecolor.blogspot.com and justine's.blogspot.com in multiplesss, eeyore with a cloud over his head,art gallery-ness
&&&&&& more
coming soon

just one quickie please??

2009-04-22T21:55:00.000-04:00

Before I emerge my self in a realm of acrylic paints and synthetic yet expensive paintbrushes to do a still life that I was suppose to do over the sping break. I yet find myself doing it the night before, as usual.
things dont change, and sometime people dont either, maybe just their habits...
A s I took the subway back home from school today I realized how we all become some sort of exotic dancer once we touch the over germed and booger stained pole of a careless nose picker. We sway our bodies left to right with each bump and wobble the subway car makes, sometimes we hold the pole with one hand, grasping tight swirling our bodies aroundd the pole, and on some rare occasions we even fall down on the gentlemen sitting down, the body of a passenger in his lap, looking down at her/him wanting to touch but its forbidden, so he just stares and laughs it off. "my own personal lapdance" he thinks, and this time his wife cant bitch about it, hey it was an "accident. Then we laughs it off saying "excuse me HAHA I'm soo sorry,thats embarassing!' Just like the newcomer we are. But after awhile falling on more people on different days and months its not as emabrassing, its commonplace. We look at the passengers reddend face and move on, and think " Fucking douche bag, even didnt think to tip me."

Brooklyn We go Hard

2009-04-19T18:56:00.001-04:00

this videoo is soo funny like l.o.b to the 5601021 power. listen to the blonde chickk fkn stupid responsesss i believe this is a parody of modern bkyln ,but what evs my fav quotes from this is
"idk abt bkyn but I know i go hard everytime the salvation army has a sale."
"i bought this arab money scarf with my american dollers."
and " i know i go hard, thats why sometome I wish my pants werent soo tight.'
EPIC FAIL!!!

Brooklyn Beauties

2009-04-17T14:14:00.001-04:00

Killa J
The art of Willy-B
hehehe
Queens!!
The L train

OnlyIn Williamsburg can you find art on the sidewalk made out of gum.

yesterday was amazing i was delighted to go to woodside/sunnyside.Justine thought that was silly of me. lol butt it was amazing stray vintage was great. finally go to see what all the talk was about. i bouught an I heart queens tote bag and an Sunnsyside tee with an owl on ittt.Im too lazy to post picss so fk it So then me justine and lolo went to williamsburg went to beacons's closet and it was kind of a letdown pretty much overrated. i didnt fina anything that i mite evn be interested in hmph. Stray vintagee was soo much betta.
Willamsburg was soo muchhhh funnnn i loveeed it. hmmm can i say loft anyone. hint hint justine and lolo :)

now listen up

2009-04-12T18:41:00.000-04:00

so recently i have been finding myself listening to Lelia Broussard on youtubee like ayyeedayy

she's amazingggggggggg.we need more singers like this on the radio fuh real fuh real.So i decided to post a bunch of my fav vid soo u ppl can listen.

ink.it.

2009-04-07T21:58:00.000-04:00

Sammy's made a wonderful ink drawing.I think he made the face in his head,not by looking at someoneeee or a magazine.completly random I belive, but its beautiful.^
Steven's bleeding eye and in the back is Leiya's work^
My two abstract pieces. Im going to contine using this medium.I used a necklace to "paint" with.It gave me alot of freedom with my strokes.I like that.^

My work again.just taken in black and white.^

Claudia did an amazing job.I love her strokes and the power in all 4 of her pieces.quite lovely.^

Steven's eye.I think he made this one too.I'm not sure. ^

My ink art.the big one is abstract,the smaller one is a body.other is also abstract .^

Helloooooo!!!!!!!!
I have been slacakin on my blogger duties and shame on me!!!
today starts the first day of SPRING BREAKKK!!!! woohooo, but all of my proff's decided to

give me hw over the breakk.these ppl just keep fkn with me I tell ya.

Art.

Today by far was one of my most favorite days in my sculpture class. My favorite section of my art class was the painting ,but today in sculpture we made a pseudo ink out of acrylic paint. All you have to do is add H2O to the paint then VOILA!! Later in class Justine decided to slap me with her long ass hair while we were critiquing lol, I did start the fight bc i slapped her with my long ass scarf ,but oh well.The proff found out and she joked about it lmaoo.After art class today justine (cheapwineandfilm.blogspot.com) and andrew decided to go on the rooftop and have a photoshoot.

IT WAS LOVELY.

im suprise we didnt get caught. im not exactly sure if students are allowerd up there but it was amazing, and oh my gosh what a view of the city. after the "photoshoot" justine decided to take more pics in the art room where she exploited me and my scare of heights.BETCH.

anywhoozer

I'm blogspot illeterate and I would like to post the ink pics right by the paragraph that talks abt them ,but i can't add pics in the middle then continue writing,well I dont know how anyway so ima just post them anywhere.deal with it.hehe.I gave credit to all of my fellow art students so no one try to start shit lol.ooohh

and justine and lolo don't get mad or offended at me bc I didn post the your pics her.I didnt have time to photgraph them all, but i think they were lovely though. :-)

Im just in a straw in the ocean

2009-03-23T23:58:00.000-04:00

The lights go onThe lights go off
When things don't feel rightI lie down like a tired dog
Licking his wounds in the shade
When I feel aliveI try to imagine a careless life
A scenic world where the sunsets are all
Breathtaking
-A Scenic World by Beirut

RESTRICT: NEW YORK CITY

2009-03-20T21:01:00.000-04:00

RECENT ADVENTENTURES: I have found myself recently to be amazingly inspired by the resrtrictions we have as New Yorkers. NO TRESSPASSING,DONT WALK. NO (Random subway line) NOT RUNNING TODAY. My inspired mind has led me to photograph them and display them on my blog.Granted, most real new yorkers dont follow these rules.Anyway here is RESTRICT:NEW YORK

Low Budgets

2009-03-17T21:04:00.000-04:00

What an amazing jam session i had with justine (cheapwineandfilm.blogspot.com) and andreww today. We turned an uptown pizzeria into a art documentary and band rehearsal. The name of the band"Low Budget" it was orignally The Low Budget but i like Low Budget better its simpler and nicer paints a quite a picture.
anywhoozer i have lots of pics and vids to post i will but im tired so u my friend will have to wait.
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JUSTINE U ARE AN AMISH GIEL AMISH GIRL AMISH GIRL

my eyes will burn your head will turm

2009-03-08T00:50:00.000-05:00

studying.cramming.media midterm on mondayyy not lookin foward. have work tomorr ;( no buena mmhmm
i hate the fact that im writing this blog while i SHOULD be studying and when i get my grade back ima try to curse the world..when it is my fault if i fail..bc i decieded to blog.
my eyes are burning
your head is turning
and tuning in and out
do this and repeat
lover's will never meet
flicker the lights....

this is how a head aches

2009-03-04T00:09:00.001-05:00

i got home around 7.30 is didnt study AT ALL it is now 12:10 and there is nuthin accomlpished my head is poundingggg. today in creative writing memoir got shredded by "constructive criticsim" hmmm i suppsodly did too much telling not enuff showingg.
well that was pleasant to experie nce each student goes around and give comments on how good/bad it is makes me feel valubale
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ALSO
i need ur opinions i really wanna transfer to NYU it was my dream school since high school, but i was too cowardly to apply. howver im at CUNY Hunter school dat was ranked number 8 by proceton reivew for best value public colleges so it is a good school and it has a good reppp bblah blahhh and its also wayy cheaper than nyu alot cheaper since it is a public universityyy
sooo idk should i go to a school cant afford therfore will open up shitload of loanss and will be in soo much debt annd grad school will add on to dat espeically since i wanna go to med school which is expensiveee hmm so its like dream school and be in debt....or just nreg good school and save money??? trust me its not as obvious as it may seem...

when the weather outside is frightful....

2009-03-02T14:58:00.000-05:00

snow.white.cold.brr.macoroni salad. all the things thta occupy this day. school is NOT closed..wtfff Hunter college should realize that as a COMMUTERR school despite if it is in mahattan not that more than half of the student body commutes therefore shouldnt school be cancelled...idiots... not like ppl dorm anyway unless they are in a sport or in honors college and i noticed they give dorms to ppl who lIVE IN NYCC cant they commute...i live on long island and have no dorm..idiotss.
1.2.3.4 repeattt....
hope they see this blog to understand how mad me and the rest of the student body is about this .lamerzzz d00d

loose lips steady hips

2009-02-26T20:48:00.000-05:00

It has been awhile so let me catch you up. School has beeen a pain like always but its a good pain im enjoying . im soo happy im back into art i feel like a ripe fruit. im meet amazingg ppl there to especially killa J hehehe hehe (up yours) shes soo funny and intelligent nice to meet someone as awkward as me . makes it seem more commonplace. life is being nice to me a good friend for the most part. i excluded all the negatives out of my life and all.
im also enjoying the crisp linen scent of the air. The crispness is very seductive and quite pleasant.so my plans so far is to write m fairy tale rough draft,study for my upcoming media midterm,do my weekly art assignments and my weekly creative writing one page writing assigmnent. As for schoolwork i am more full than an contestant at a hotog eating contest.

swollen

2009-02-22T00:43:00.000-05:00

I have aquired the tasty infection of pink eye. Fkn NYC public trasnprtation is the epicenter for germs.I srsly think we should run the bio labs there in stead of in school. I woke up to see this olive colored creen goo on my eye. i felt unatractivve and more disguistin than nrmal.My throat began and still is swellin up. the sofest thing is a task for me to swollow. i feel mucus deep inside of me anxious to be released.the pink eye is gone but my throat however is killling me.AnywhoozerzI cant belive all i lost during the semester and before the semester. i feel as if im a new born baby gettin a fresh new start. its kinda refereshing to start over again yet its kinda tuff to realize what u lost but when i think abt it i didnt lose much besides drama . my trust issue is going to be the reasion to why i willl end up alone and miserble. no one can be trusted i love my mom LOVEEE HERR but even with her i still feel like there is some trust missing the whole forgive and forget thing doesnt mean shit to mee i dont forgive and hell fkn no do i forget ooh hell noooo but for my new friends i am completly grateful. My new art class reminded me on what ive been missing, to meet ppl who arent so judgemental abt grades and arent so fkn competitive. granted some of the kids can be pretentious but pretension is allowed in art. unlike in premed when there is no such thiing as talent..it doesnt take any talent to open up a textbooo until you forced yourself to attain all of the tedious fomulas they have to offer in art however .. you just kinda know If you have a "talent" per se u can see it ppl can see it.you cant see intelligence and there is no proof that u are as smart as u think u are .in art ppl can see your talent so therefore pretention in the art world is more allowed.but all things in moderation...

out with the old

2009-02-18T01:43:00.000-05:00

I now realize that its time for me to let go of alot of things and even some people.its a new year and i should startt fresh. myt desire to punch the neareast wall has yet to subside,so instead i try to keep my fingers occupied because if not i will lose my minbd,which is already practically gone.since this is my frist post ima keep it light n fluffy besides there is a bunch of homeowrk with my name on it